smoking

This huge sys arch assignment is weighing on me like a ton of bricks. argh argh argh.
It has only been 7 days since I last saw my girlfriend, but gosh, it feels like a month. I suppose it is because I haven't talked to her since then. she is on a cruise with her family....
right now, i am playing email tag with my gf because she found some loophole that allows her to email for free, instead of getting charged some horrendous amout per minute...
but I am soooo tired....what I would do to hear her voice!

here I am, drinking some vodka on rocks, well formerly on rocks, now the ice is all gone...
blegh, I have always hated vodka, shame I am out of jack....
now good ol' jack, or john daniels, close friends call him john (scent of a woman) hoo ha!
jack has grown on me ever since my 21... well, whiskey in general, i survived 26 shots of it!
i wear this fact like a badge! ha ha! not sure if that is a good thing, but oh well.

I wish that I wouldn't have to sleep as much. I know this kid who doesn't sleep at all during the week - or hardly, and catches his sleep on the weekends. He is a full time student, and a full time worker!
crazy. he still seems to do well in school - i think.
so many bright people out there, and i shine like a dull lamp post.
so, less than a year left till I can get of this godforsaken school called drexel. i have been toying with the idea of grad school - but i'm not sure if can afford it just yet...and I don't think I am motivated enough.. drexel has sapped the living soul out of me. damn you drexel, damn you, sap my soul, sap my pockets, what will you sap next!
eh, eh eh, future is unclear...today, philly was draped in a blanket of fog-like smog?

sometimes i feel as if i was born in the wrong time...
sometimes I feel like throwing it all away and start farming...

it just feels like I am living a wrong life!
i don't belong here, i should be at some other place, some other time...
blasted computers!