words that once were within my hands reach are not there anymore. Nothing seem to be quite flowing in my life these days. That is except time, which moves with a strong current. I have been blogging for over 8 months. I realize that I have been living in a fantasy. All those careless decisions I made, that I have shrugged off... where am I now? Where shall I be tommorow, a week from now..a year from now?
why is it that I cannot do the things I need to do?
I must not turn a blind eye on reality.. how long, how far can I go this way?

love, something I had longed for ever since I can remember. Is it the fate of a true romantic to die..wither away? I should like to believe that I shall defy the fates if need be to remain true to myself. pooh.